Issues and secret shame

Issues:   Commercials   everyone hates them, and most people watch stuff on DVR so they can zip through them.


I’ve been watching a lot of shows on my Ipad and using the channel apps so I’ve been having to watch commercials and HOLY SHIT some of them are so stupid

Example:  there is one for Sprint, a group of women, one is Judy Greer, and the girls are yelling about the new iphone and  all these glasses breaks….WTF who gets that excited about a phone plan

How are all new shows#1.    I do believe that is pretty much impoosible to have so many #1 shows.


I can’t  belienve I’m gonna admit this, but I like The Mysteries of Laura. It’s  cute, Debra messing is adorable, It’s a clever procedural.    Not  groundbreaking  in anyway, but cute.

I also like Stalker.  BUT, the who dun it,   not the characters.  if they interact during the storylines of the who dun it, they are fine, if they interact when there are just talking, HOLY CRAP they are horrible people. The writing is horrible and I’m really ashamed to admit I watch it.

So, what’s your big issue or small issue and your  secret shame




I had a really amazing weekend at NY Comic Con.
Started the minute I got off the train (which I’m not ready to discuss yet, but trust me, it’s great) on Thursday morning and went straight through to Sunday morning.

Thursday Saw Arthur Darvill – Rory Williams himself. LN got his autograph and my brother got to tell him he roadied for his father. Did you know Arthur Darvill’s father was the keyboardist for Fine Young Cannibals. Now you do.
Also went to an Adam West panel and he was amazing. He’s funny and charming and still very handsome.

Friday I think started with the Elementary panel, Jonny Lee Miller, Lucy Lui
then we went to the Adult Swim panel, but I left to go to the Once Upon a time panel, where I camped out to see BIRDMAN panel with Michael Keatona and Edward Norton – moderated by CHRIS HARDWICK who is my new boyfriend. My nephews can call him uncle now.
After the panel, the audience rushed the stage and Keaton and Norton BOOKED but my boyfriend said he would stay to take pics and stuff so I got a pic with him. He put his arm around me and touched my phone. I love Chris Hardwick so much I can’t even tell you.

Saturday was the big day. The Javitz center opened at 8 am people were on line at 6. Why, you ask. Well it was the Walking Dead panel day and it was first come, first bracelet given out. My brother and I had handicap passes and we got passes first. But, before that panel, was The League. If you haven’t seen this show on FX (or FXX, I’m not sure which one) binge watch it on Netflix and then watch it. It is so fucking funny. The panel was hysterical

Then it was WALKING DEAD TIME moderated by my boyfriend Chris Hardwick. (have I mentioned I love him) It was AMAZING The cast was funny and charming and so nice. This is going to be an amazing season. Another show, if you aren’t watching – binge it on Netflix and then catch up on AMC on demand and also watch Talking Dead with my boyfriend.

i went to the Stephen Amell panel (arrow) and he is so hot and it was really good but after that was Daredevil, coming soon to Netflix. Damn if this doesn’t look great. Better then the movie, but really anything is better then the movie.

I came home early Sunday to go to my niece’s birthday party but only stayed for a bit. Actually left before any kids got there.

But when I say I had one of the best weekends ever, I mean it. I can’t wait until next year.


It’s a big month.   My birthday is this month.  44.   That’s a lot of numbers


I’m going to NYCC (New York Comic Con) this coming weekend.   I’m so freaking excited I can’t stand it.

Im gonna see the Walking Dead and Chris Hardwick and Arthur Darvill and possibly the League and so much other stuff.



Caring is good.

Here’s the conundrum

I have anxiety.
I have the fun anxiety that doesn’t turn my brain off at night because I have to worry about EVERYTHING.

Some valid worries like will I get a job. Some that are out of my control like what will I do if/ when something happens to my parents and some totally irrational ones like is there a dent in my mattress

I posted on Facebook that anxiety is when you care to much about everything

I also posted that one of the greatest mental freedoms is when you don’t care what other people think of you

But not caring what people think of you and caring to much…is that counteractive

I don’t give a damn what people think of me. You like me great. You don’t fine. Most do the time I am in my own head and not paying attention to what you are thinking about me anyway. Unfriended on FB. Ok. No skin if my nose, I can guarantee I won’t notice until someone tells me

My life is my own. Your life is yours If you choose to share your life with me that is fantastic. If you don’t, thats fine also, but know that if you think I’m going to be upset about it….sorry to disappoint It’s more likely I won’t notice

It doesn’t mean I don’t care, it means that my Meds are working and my life is actually taking precedence. But if you need me….call, text or email. I promise I will listen because if you let me in your life and I let you in mine it’s because I do care. A lot

It’s getting hard

I haven’t worked since April.    As much as I like not working, I need a job because I’m not independently wealthy. 


I keep getting phone interviews, and they say they like me and I will be hearing from them.  I follow up and get told “they are still reviewing and I should hear shortly”    and that never happens 

If you don’t want to hire me, fine, but send an email or call and say sorry not sorry.    The  not hearing sucks, especially when they tell you you did well. 

It’s just frustrating.