I need to clarify
I don’t care if my friends do stuff together and become friends on their own. When R1 and R2 go away for the weekend, while yes I would have liked to have been asked, I know it’s because R1 knew I wouldn’t have been able to go. What bothers me is that they hid it from me. I know they are going to have fun
And what bothers me about J1 and R2 not telling me stuff, it’s not little things, it’s big things like pregnancy and one of their mothers having a stroke. I am happy and sad for the person (same one is pregnant and mother had a stroke) R2 knew since Thursday and it didn’t occur to either of them to tell me until the next week I know I’m not the one that matters in either instance, but the fact that they were talking about it and it didn’t occur to them that I may want to know because I am their friend also and care about them and would be there for them.
I know they aren’t going to dump me as a friend. That’s actually the least of my worries. I know we are all friends for a reason and that won’t change
I don’t know why it bothers me.
I have friends. (Shut up). I like when my friends become friends with each other but…
I have a friend R1 and a friend R2. I was the link between the two. I’m glad they are now independent friends but they made plans to go away for a weekend and didn’t tell me or invite me.
I have a friend J1. I introduced her to R2. They got along and that is great. They go to bars together which is great since I’m not a big bar person. They always ask me if I want to go and sometimes I do and sometimes I don’t. The problem I have is they tell each other stuff then say it to me like I already know. Basically they forgot they didn’t tell me.
I know its petty and dumb but it bothers me that my friends are becoming better friends with each then with me
So I use to be a morning person. Waking up about 30 minutes before my alarm and doing stuff in the house like cleaning. Or when I moved into my own place laundry and dishes and stuff. Then I hit 35
Now. I need two alarms to get up. Granted they go off about 2 minutes apart but even then its a struggle to get out of bed (and we know how much I love my bed).
I know part of the problem is that I need to exercise. It will give me more energy and I won’t be as sore all the time but I have no time to exercise. Especially now that I don’t get up in the morning.
Maybe I’ll win the lottery and just be able to sleep all the time